Johnel: Hey everyone
I’m currently trying to get Ganondorf to be more cooperative with doing the
next part so I thought I’d riff on one of the companion fics to My Inner Life. You see this is one of
three fics that the author made having one of the more cannon possible love
interests for Link pining that they can’t have him because of the Mary Sue
Jenna. They are terrible but a good way to take a break from the meat of the
riff. Also light spoilers for this and the others are from a latter perspective
of My Inner Life.
Ruto's Song:
Johnel: No the large
gap isn’t me screwing up the editing this time and I resent the accusation.
Authors notes: This story is also a song fic based on a song
by Mariah Carey.
Johnel: The author
loves Mariah Carey so this isn’t the only song fic using her songs.
The song is called
“Breakdown” This one is going to focus on Ruto’s feelings for Link. Even though
Link has found and married another, Ruto is questioning herself if she really
is over him. Her life has changed dynamically, ever since the day Link married
his current wife Jenna. Ruto has sat on the sidelines and watched him marry,
and have four beautiful children.
Johnel: I don’t think
the author ever got to the other children before the main fic died though.
Even though she still remains friends with Link and Jenna,
have her feelings for Link returned? Read on to find out! Rated PG 13 for adult
langue and themes.
Johnel: Part of me is
happy for this means no sex scene. Part of me is so desensitized that it
doesn’t really matter.
Disclaimer: Ok I know I do not own Ruto, Link or any of the
other Zelda peeps.
They belong to Nintendo (Though I wish I owned Link hehehe)
But I however do own
Jenna and any another chars in this story that are not found in Zelda, so don’t
use them without my permission.
Johnel: Why the fuck
would I want to use your characters?
I’m just using the
Zelda peeps for my stories
Ruto’s Song
A love not meant to be
Johnel: Once again
the gaps aren’t my fault so they are staying in. Also that opening line doesn’t
look right but I can’t tell why.
Ruto stared lazily up at the sky as she sat on the bank of
Lake Hylia. Her eyes locked onto it’s aqua blue tones as she watched distant
clouds roll by, causing shapes of creatures to form in them. She had been there
all day, she had gone there to think about her feelings, the feelings she still
had for Link.
Johnel: Well this is
really boring I was hoping for something crazy to make fun of already.
Now she had done it, she was still in love with him, but it
was impossible now. He had already married another and had four children with
her. “But why do I still feel this way?” Ruto questioned herself. She felt her
body swarm with uneasy feelings, her mind clogged with thoughts of “him”. Had
she been living in denial all this time? She convinced herself after he married
Jenna that she was over him. But she still felt strong feelings for him.
Johnel: Because the
author wants to have you all be jealous and lord it over you is my best guess
why you still do.
She rose and walked gloomily around the lake. Her thoughts
of “him” racing threw her mind. “Am I really living in denial?” “Did I only
convince myself that I was over him when I really wasn’t?” “But it’s impossible
now, he has already married another.”
Johnel: Well you
could be his mistress then.
Ruto shook her head,
the feelings still strong inside her. “OH GODDESSESS WHY DO I STILL FEEL THIS
WAY?!” Ruto cried sorrowfully into the air……..
“Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me….”
Johnel: Okay you have
most likely listened to the song itself as posted up above to get a feel for
it. Now in my personal opinion it is a very meh song not really horrendous but
not something I’d listen to. Also the opening bit of the breakdown repetition
is sung by male backup vocals so does Ruto have a Zora barbershop quartet
following her around?
Tears streamed down her face. She felt her body race with
uneasy feelings as she wandered restlessly around the area surrounding Lake
Hylia. Her blue sapphire eyes glistened as the tears fell form them. “Perhaps
I'm just fantasizing, perhaps I’m just wishing for something that isn’t going
to happen.” “How I miss looking into those blue eyes, blue like the
water in which my people live, shimmering like the sapphire
that brought
us together, and sparkling like the tears now falling freely
from my
eyes.”
Johnel: Why is one
continuous dialogue being broken up like this it is very confusing.
“NO!!!”
Ruto cried, burying
her face in her hands. “Why can’t I get over him?” “WHY!?” “Its so over I know,
but I cannot help the way I feel!” Ruto screamed. She felt as if she was dying
inside, her heart wrenching with confused feelings, feelings full of a useless
hope.
Johnel: Well the evil
demon spawn that married him obviously but a curse on you.
”Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
Johnel: Okay more of
a criticism towards the song but I’m not sure I like that use of the word
nonchalant. That could just be me though.
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry”
Images of the first day they met filled into her mind. From
the time when he saved her from the bows of Jabau Jabau’s belly, to the vows
she thought they made when she handed him the Zora’s Sapphire.
Johnel: I admit I
kind of hated having to carry her around in that dungeon. Also it is bows you
idiot it is bowls!
Then she remembered
when he disappeared for seven long years, trapped inside the Sacred Realm. She
felt abandoned, felt like he left her behind. Then one day he showed up inside
the Water Temple, wearing the Zora Tunic, and at first I thought I was
hallucinating, I thought it was all a dream, then I saw those blue eyes,
twinkling against the clear water that filled the Temple, and it was then I
knew I was no longer alone. I had finally thought he had returned to me,
thought he was ready to take his place at my side as King, but I was wrong.
Johnel: Could they
even legally have someone who was not of the Zora race be their king?
“Now this new feeling has washed over me, the feeling is
more then just one of fear: it's one of loneliness, abandonment, horror, and
trepidation.” “Where do I go from here?” Without...Link.
Johnel: Termina?
“So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got
a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing “I will survive”
Do you lash out and say “How dare you leave this way”
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away”
“Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry”
Johnel: Don’t think
we needed a repetition of what could be called the chorus but whatever.
She descended into the lake to wet her dried skin, then she
walked back out and onto the bank, her body shimmering as little droplets of
water ran down her body like small diamonds as the sun reflected off of them.
Johnel: Okay the
droplets part is a little squicky but that could be the effect of fanfiction
coloring my interpretation of the lines.
She walked slowly
towards the fences that led to the lake, then stopped. Her aqua blue eyes
closed as she stood and thought for a moment. She pondered if she should sneak
over to the Lost Woods and spy on Link.
Johnel: Of course don’t
you know anything about psychology! Stalking equals love.
She felt something inside her say that she wanted to see him
that she needed to see those “eyes” again. How she longed for him. A yearning
to feel him longed inside her. She had always wanted to feel him naked against
her, the thought of his lean infatuated body made her groan inside.
Johnel: You might
want to see a doctor about those groaning internal organs.
She had always loved
the shape of his body, the hard muscles that rippled threw his tunic always
made her swoon.
Johnel: What muscles?
But there was not hope of that now. She had always wanted to
share herself with him, she even saved that “special part of her” just for him.
Johnel: Okay first
her kind seems to lay eggs so do they even utilize penetrative mating? Second
she is naked in the games and there is no genitalia to be found so what is this
special part of her then? Also I’m getting sick of the authors obsession with
virginity.
But now that was all
just a lingering fantasy. She felt all the pain slowly return. She felt as if
she was suffering. Again the feeling of being abandoned slowly welled up inside
her again as her thoughts of anger towards him returned.
“How could he do this to...us!?”
Johnel: What is she
suddenly Gollum now?
Ruto yelled to
herself. “What the hell happened to us?” “Gone, that's what!” “In a breaths
time, I have lost everything and anything Link and I ever shared after he
married that….that brown haired women, Jenna!”
Johnel: Ruto language.
She is the brown haired demon whore slut dumbass Jenna.
“He was supposed to
my husband--no matter what relationship he'd had with Jenna, he was supposed to
be mine.” “We made those vows to each other ten years ago.” “And because of
that I thought of him to be the prime choice for someone as beautiful as I.”
Ruto wiped the stinging tears away with the back of her hand as she raised her
head skyward. “Had he really forgotten about those “special” vows we made?”
“Did his love for me really just simply slip….away?” “Where do I go from here?”
Johnel: Well no
offense he really didn’t promise to marry you and I don’t even think he
understood exactly what you were implying back then so it isn’t like he could.
Yeah, c'mon Yeah, c'mon, c'mon Break break down
Gotta get control Roll roll roll along Steady breakin' me on
down
Roll roll roll along Break break down Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll along It'll break you down
Only if you let it Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my
mind
Tryin' to break me down But I won't let it Forget it
Forget it I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down
Kickin' me around Stressin' me out I think I better go and
get
out and let me Release some stress (stress) Don't ever wanna
feel no pain (pain) Hoping for the sun But it looks like
rain
(rain, rain, rain) Oh, I just wanna maintain Yeah, when you
feel the pressure's on But nevertheless Krayzie won't fall It's over
It's endin' here, here
Johnel: Eh once again
not the greatest lyrics ever.
“I never really considered it was over, never had I imagined
that our love would slowly just fade away.” Ruto hung her head low as she
decided to cross the fences that bordered Hyrule Field. She just wandered
aimlessly around it for what seemed like an eternity, before slowly slipping
into the secret entrance to the Lost Woods she had built so she could secretly
watch Link without him or Jenna knowing.
Johnel: Okay Ruto
this is what we call psychotic behavior and you should probably go see a mental
health professional as soon as possible.
She made her way around the winding tunnel until a bright
light came into view. Slowly she emerged into the sanctuary of the Lost Woods,
then proceeded to slip over to Link’s home. When she got close enough, she
heard voices. Slinking behind a nearby bush, she slowly raised her head over it
and saw three figures standing in front of the beautiful house Link had built
before he married.…Jenna.
Johnel: I’m still not
sure how he was able to build that house either.
Her blue-jeweled eyes lit up when she caught a glimpse of
Link playing with his young son, Roan.
Johnel: Roan? I was
actually expecting something worse for Sue spawn names I’m pleasantly bored
with the name Roan.
She just sat there
and reveled in his gorgeousness as he played catch with his small son. Oh how
his muscles made her body quake when they bulged underneath his green tunic
after he threw the ball back each time. She felt her body swarm with the
feelings of a lustful yearning and longing all over again. Her hands gripped
tightly down onto the bush she was hiding behind, it was all she could do to
keep herself from wanting to go running over to him. As always every time she
went there that way, she had to always fight to keep her emotions from
overtaking her and blowing her cover. But each and every time she did come, it
was getting harder to control “those feelings”.
Johnel: Madam control yourself there are children present!
Then another figure emerged from the house. The figure was a
women and she soon realized that the women was his wife Jenna. She was carrying
a tray with what looked to be drinks on it and handed Link and their two sons
each a goblet.
Johnel: Wait where is
this other son I thought he was playing with just the one named Roan?
The next thing that
happened sent Ruto over the edge. She watched as Jenna went into Link’s arms,
then they kissed passionately. She felt tears well up in her eyes as she lost
control over it. The tears streamed like small rivers down her face as she
watched Link hold Jenna lovingly in his arms.
Johnel: Probably made
their kids regurgitate the drinks too.
That was her undoing, she completely lost control of her
emotions. She slowly slipped back threw the tunnel and emerged back under the
hazy sky of Hyrule Field. She just had her heart broken again, broken for about
the hundredth time. “What is wrong with me, why is it so hard for me to just
“forget him?” “Why must my heart continue to break, why must I suffer this
way?” “WHY?!” “Oh goddesses I just want to be over him!” “Is that just too much
to ask!”
Johnel: Not until the
Sue is done lording the superiority of her husband over you.
Ruto cried out towards the sky, her eyes stinging from the
gushing tears. “But I still love him.” “And I know just how hard it is to just
ignore those “feelings”. “Its not something that you can just simply throw
aside.”
Johnel: May I suggest
lots of liquor?
“Link…how could you have just left me so...so stricken and
confused?” Ruto whispered to herself. “Whatever the cause of this is, it can't
be my fault. No, never will be!”
Johnel: Well it is
the Sue’s fault so you are right.
Ruto scorned as she fell to the ground in a crying heap.
“What am I to do when I become queen?”
Johnel: Tax reforms,
proper military funding, more open relations with neighboring nations, and not
becoming so fat it is hard to move I think would be good options.
“I will have no partner to bear the next heir to the throne,
nor be there by my side during the hard times.”
Johnel:*Snaps fingers*
You don’t need no man girlfriend.
“Dammit; how dare he,
leaving me so blustered like this!” She felt as if Link had ripped her heart
out of her chest and threw it at her. She felt as if her whole being was being
torn apart. “For once, I don't know the answer to my broken heart, but...but
I'm sure the answer will make itself known to me soon, for a wise sage never
goes long without the answers...”
Johnel: Also as a
sage shouldn’t you be dead? It was never clear in the game.
“...Or do they?”
“Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry”
“No, I cry mentally, wringing my mind of all the doubts and
fears that
have been threatening to crash down one me.”
Johnel: For the brain
is much like a sponge.
“But again the one
question I still ask myself still goes unanswered, “Was Link really in love
with another from the beginning?” “Was the flame between us really nonexistent
from the start?”
Johnel: Possibly.
“I guess I will never
know the answer that still evades me to this day.” “But wither or not he ever
shared the same feelings for me that I do for him, I will always love
him….until the end of time.”
Johnel: Did the
author just really have a character say the word sigh?
“I guess he will
never know my true feelings for him, but maybe just maybe I have come to the
realization that Link indeed became a butterfly and needed to know what it felt
like to fly.”
Johnel: That was just
one of the dumbest lines I have ever had the displeasure of reading for this
blog.
Ruto dried her tear-stained face and looked into the
lavender pinkish rays of the setting sun once more. “Perhaps, I have to come to
terms with myself. Perhaps...I am the one who is wrong……Maybe it really is time
to let go.”
Johnel: Could you maybe
murder the Sue in a crime of passion first you know just for kicks?
“Breakdown”
Well what did ya think? Yay Nay? Well pleases tell me what
ya thought, I’m dying to know.
Johnel: Stop saying
ya it makes you sound like your inbreed or Raijin whichever you find worse.
I know that this is
one of my first attempts at writing a song fic, but I think I did pretty well
don’t ya think?
Johnel: No in fact
that was an awful attempt and you should feel bad. Push the button Mister.
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